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| God broke me down... I finally let Him in again...
You know, just like blind people have really great hearing and other senses, I've found mentally retarded tends to mean spriritually and emotionally blessed. and mentally blessed can make it that much harder to be emotionally and spiritually real. overthinking things can make life complicated, but underthinking isn't too great, either. sometimes it's great to just be. there's no one better to remind you of that than a person whose life is solely about praising God for the opportunity to live and for the opportunity to make friends and have a good time. I know people who may never make a dollar in their lives who are richer than anyone else I know... that says something. something for me to remember... I can just be, and follow my God-given and grown passions. no worries attached, I can be so happy and rich that it won't matter about the physical details. what a blessing to be shown that... to have people who care enough to wait patiently for you, for as long as it takes, to let you know that they care and they love you and they'll be there to help you along the way and they'll catch you when you come back. and above all, I have one friend who is perfect and is that kind of a blessing all the time. the Lord is amazing, and I'm glad that He loves me even when I'm not and is still willing to make something and allow me to make something of my life. it's enough to bring tears to my eyes and it just makes me shake, literally, with joy and awe and wow. what love!
ok, more details about camp later I guess. :) love you all!
Steph
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| she don't want nobody near
heading off to handycamp tomorrow, God works miracles there... very visibly. you kind of have no choice but to realize things and grow and learn. looking forward to that, without even realizing it yet. i know it'll be so good for me to be there. because there's a lot i need to deal with, and maybe i'll actually open up to my camper. they're the best listeners and they sense everything... no hiding or pulling the wool over their eyes! no covering my heart either... vulnerability at its core. we'll see how i handle that now. love you all and hopefully i'll talk to you soon... laura, hopefully i'll see you at the dance! and you too, jb and shelby and kaitlin. it's thursday at around 7:30 at my church on 126th street, Christ the Savior Lutheran Church. it'll be a blast, hope to see you all there! | | |
| Y-A-Y spells YAY! i get to see my team today... colorado was amazing, but i am glad to be home, and looking forward to school... aighty, love you all! God bless! and you better be smiling... cuz i am! | | |
| God is amazing... I mean AMAZING! just when I start to wonder if my prayers are even working or if I'm so far off that they aren't getting through, I pray a more desperate prayer... and it's answered LIKE THAT. overnight! not even kidding. wow. so I couldn't take my friend's pain away, but He could... and He did, just like that. amazing. I prayed last night that my friend would be able to find comfort and peace and closure on what was stressing her, and I knew that the answer she was looking for wasn't supposed to come for a while, but I prayed that somehow she would know sooner so she wouldn't have to worry about it. and she unexpectedly got the answer this morning! pretty amazing. wow, so the OPPOSITE of prayer doesn't work... more like it's amazing. had the BEST night of the summer last night, and I can say that now :) tom pettty was so much fun, it stormed and rained and lightning-ed so much, but the concert was amazing, and for the longest time it was just lightning and no rain, so it was like "God's light show" to go right along with the concert, and it was so cool! then the power went out twice, once there was fire and stuff i guess off to the side... but it was all cool. when the power went out, we could hear the band acoustic and everyone kept singing, it was amazing. finally it started pouring, big, cold raindrops, and the verizon people made 'em get off stage and told everyone to leave. we waited at the top of the hill for a friend to meet up with us again, while it POURED and stormed harder than I've ever seen it, and my friend had an interesting time with the grass and the hill and a nub... that's right, a nub! so cool. then we walked/swam out in above ankle deep water, waited in the car for a long time, and headed home. we decided NOT to camp out back, which is good... we woke up and the tent had partially collapsed. funny stuff! that would have been a fun wake up. anyways, so much fun, so many crazy memories in one night... wow, can't even explain it. swilly, way to stay strong! it kept me that way... there were a LOT of people I knew there and I was tempted to go chill with them for just a little bit, but that would not have been the best idea, and it was more fun staying cool. so, cool! alrighty, i'm out to "chillax"... I don't remember who said that to me, but it's a fun word. :) later punks! | | |
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